Professor Robert Buswell, UCLA.
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Excerpted from Polishing the Diamond, Enlightening the Mind : Reflections of a Korean Buddhist Master by Jae Woong Kim and Chae-Ung Kim. Copyright © 1999. Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved
Since the bosallim was wearing many layers of clothing, she felt uncomfortable in her wool coat. She took off her coat and hung it in a room, then bowed and prayed in front of the stone Buddha until dawn. By that time it had gotten colder, so she went back to the room to get her coat so that she might continue praying.
The room had been heated all night by a large fire, and it was so hot that some of the floor mats were slightly burnt. A couple of bosallims were sleeping on the floor instead of praying all night. The scene did not please her. She looked everywhere for her coat and finally found someone sleeping on top of it so as to lessen the heat from the floor. Filled with rage, she examined the coat and found that it was all wrinkled, with some spots even slightly burnt.
She was about to wake the woman who was sleeping on top of the coat and yell at her, but she restrained herself, thinking, "Since the coat is already in this condition, yelling at her will not iron out the wrinkles or repair the burns." She also rationalized that, on her way up to the temple, she could have ripped the coat by getting it stuck on a branch, or lost it entirely, so she convinced herself it was a good thing that only this much damage had occurred.
After her trip, the bosallim came to me and asked me if showing such restraint is how the practice of surrendering is done. Surrendering, however, does not mean restraining or rationalizing one's emotion like that. The moment she thought it was not proper for those women to sleep on the floor, the scolding mind of anger had already surfaced in her mind. The person who practices surrendering well without losing mindfulness would have started to surrender his or her criticism at that very moment. If she had surrendered well at that moment, she probably would not have been so angry when she first found someone sleeping on her coat. If she were not able to do that, she could have at least surrendered her anger the moment she was overwhelmed with rage, even though it was a little late. Instead, she let her anger escape. Surrendering does not mean going through a process of restraining or rationalizing one's emotion, but rather surrendering that emotion directly by reciting Buddha Maitreya's name, Miruk Chon Yorae Pul.
The instant anger arises in you, you should cleanse it from your mind and be free of it immediately. You should surrender your anger until there is no remnant of it left in you. Also, you should practice surrendering in such a way that the time it takes to cleanse the discriminative notion from your mind gradually diminishes.
Hardened karmic hindrances accumulated in your mind can be surrendered only if they are first revealed through external shocks, just as we remove the dirt in the bottom of a well by stirring its water with a long stick and collecting the surfacing sediments. There is a saying that goes, "Liberation is being happy to see your karmic hindrances arise." This shows us the attitude of a spiritual seeker: always ready.