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The Beat of My Own Drum: A Memoir (English Edition) [Format Kindle]

Sheila E. , Wendy Holden

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The Beat of My Own Drum

1. Crescendo

The loudest point reached in a gradually increasing sound

You came into my life

In time

That moment I knew

We would share our dreams

And so it seems

That dreams do come true



I could hear the beat as I approached the stage. The connection between the music and me felt like it was in my DNA. The cymbals vibrated through my body and the timbales shook my bones. My father’s conga playing touched me somewhere deep within my soul.

“You were kicking in time to the percussion inside your mom’s belly!” he’d tell me with a chuckle. “After you were born I took you to clubs in a bassinet and hid you behind the bar!”

It was no wonder that the pounding of his drums felt like the heartbeat of my life.

The preparations for my first live performance that night in 1962 had taken more than an hour at my grandparents’ house on Thirty-third and Market Street in West Oakland, California. Some of my older cousins had gathered around to watch, curious, as Moms dressed me up.

I was five years old.

When she helped me into a new white dress with a frilly lace hem, I knew that it had to be a special occasion. I only ever wore dresses for fancy events like birthday parties or going to church on Sundays.

Mama—my Creole grandmother, who was what they called “light skin,” with dyed black hair, stockings rolled to the knee, and never without her apron, sat rocking in her chair with a grin as Moms fixed my hair and tied a white ribbon into my almost shoulder-length curls.

The prettier she made me look, the more my cousins complained. “This isn’t fair,” they whined. “How come Sheila gets to go and we can’t?”

My mother told them they weren’t old enough to go to a nightclub. They must have been between six and ten years old.

“But she’s younger than us!” they protested in unison.

“Yes,” Moms countered quickly. “But this is a special night—Sheila’s going to go perform with her father.”

I looked up into her face, wide-eyed. “I’m gonna play with Daddy?”

She nodded.

I smiled. I didn’t feel fazed by the news at all. I played with Pops all the time at home, stepping up to his congas (with the help of a chair) and hammering out a rhythm with my tiny hands.

Even when he wasn’t around, I’d create music from any thing—beating on pots and pans, a window, a wall, a table, or my chest. Moms and Pops said that each time a Jiffy peanut-butter commercial came on TV, I’d run to the old Zenith set (that looked like something from a spaceship) and tap on the screen in time to the rhythm. The tune had a melody and beat that captured my attention.

Eventually, my persistence wore down the grown-ups. Pops and his friends would laughingly concede and let me join in one of their daily jamming sessions.

“Come and play, Sheila,” they’d say. I had no idea that many of them were famous musicians—they were just Pops’s friends—and they didn’t need to ask me twice. Sitting on the congas opposite my father, I’d mimic his hand movements as if I was looking in a mirror. I’d watch him practice, and I’d practice along with him. I guess he’d decided I was ready to go public.

Moms folded over the ruffled lining of my white socks and slipped me into shiny patent leather shoes with silver buckles. They were uncomfortably new. I arched my feet to test their flexibility and winced a little when they pinched.

“I’ll get ready and then we’ll go,” she told me, stroking my cheek with the back of her hand.

I loved all the attention she was paying me.

I loved that I was going to play with Pops.

I loved that I didn’t hurt anymore.

Everything was still very muddled in my head, but that night she was getting me ready can’t have been long after the Bad Thing happened.

The thing nobody talked about.

The thing that made me so sick inside.

I didn’t realize it at the time, but letting me play with Pops and his Escovedo Brothers Latin Jazz Sextet must have been some kind of reward.

Not that my parents chose to see it that way. “You were a natural real young,” they’d say firmly. “We just thought it would be fun for you to show everyone what you could do.” Even now, more than fifty years later, they find what happened back then almost impossible to talk about.

No matter what the reason for my first performance that night, it is true that a day never passed in our house without music being played. The words “I want to be a musician” never came from my mouth, though. I didn’t even think about it.

In fact, later on, once I’d witnessed the first moon landings (which seemed almost impossible to believe), I had my heart set on becoming an astronaut. I was so excited by the idea; I wanted to know everything about space and the enormity of the universe. I wanted to learn to fly an aircraft. I wanted to fly to the moon. Being my mother’s daughter, I didn’t want to have to wait to be a grown-up to do it. Oh, no. I didn’t want to be the first woman to step onto the lunar surface. I wanted to be the first little girl on the moon. Later, I switched ambitions and decided I’d win an Olympic gold medal for running track. I had a clear vision in my head of crossing the finish line as the crowd roared, then standing on the podium as the national anthem was played, my medal heavy around my neck.

It never occurred to me that I might not be able to do both, or either.

The one thing that made me truly happy, though, was music. I loved every kind of music, from classical to Motown, and Latin jazz especially touched my heart. But whether I was listening to Pops practicing, tapping away to a Miles Davis record, or watching Karen Carpenter beating her drums, those were the times when I’d close my eyes and lose myself—not realizing that music was going to become my passion and my purpose.

Those times were when I was able to forget.

I don’t remember how we traveled to the venue of my first public performance that warm summer night, though we must have driven. I seem to recall Moms opening the back door of her car for me to get out, and frowning because there was already a crease in my new shoes.

The historic Sweet’s Ballroom in Oakland was several miles away from where we lived in an apartment we were soon to be kicked out of for not paying the rent. Not that I minded moving again one little bit—I couldn’t wait to get away from that house, which I was beginning to think was cursed.

What I do recall about that night at Sweet’s—so vividly I can almost smell the cigarette smoke—is holding Moms’s hand as we climbed the grand staircase to where the music was playing.

Being only five years old, I was still small, and my arm was fully extended as I gripped my mother’s fingers. Moms looked so beautiful in her blouse and pants, with her hair teased up at the top. I felt as if I was in the presence of an angel that night. She seemed so light and luminous that I thought she might float away unless I held on tight.

When we reached the top of the red-carpeted stairs, we turned left and faced an enormous art deco ballroom, complete with a high ceiling and polished hardwood floor.

My eyes wide, I gazed around me in wonder.

There was a balcony upstairs and plush banquette seating to the side. On the dance floor, hundreds of people were swaying to the music being played by a band way up front on a stage. Everyone looked so smartly dressed compared to the adults I usually saw hanging round our apartment wearing tie-dyed shirts and bell-bottom jeans.

The music was very loud—even louder than at home—and the place was packed. The heat from all those bodies made me break out in a sweat as my heart began hammering a beat of its own against my rib cage and butterflies began dancing in my tummy.

When the band stopped playing, there was an enthusiastic round of applause along with some loud whistling. Moms waved at Pops, and he yelled at someone on the stage, “Juanita’s here!”

The next part remains frozen in slow motion in my memory.

Pops’s voice boomed out of the speakers as he announced, “Hey, ladies and gents, my wife has just arrived and is over by the entrance. My daughter Sheila’s with her tonight, and she’s going to come up and play for you, so I want you to give her a big Bay Area welcome, okay?”

As if by magic, everybody swiveled around to face us, and there was a thunderous clapping and stamping of feet. They all stepped aside to create a perfect polished pathway to the stage. It was like Moses parting the Red Sea.

Everyone in that big old room seemed to gasp when they caught sight of how little I was. Men and women reached out to touch my head or pat me on the back, cooing “Aaah!” as Moms led me through a forest of legs.

Straight ahead of me, the high stage was bathed in pretty colored lights. I spotted Uncle Coke sitting behind his timbales and my Uncle Phil on bass. Pops stood at the front, beaming down at me. As ever, he was dressed in a suit and tie, and I felt proud to have the smartest dad in the room.

As Moms and I continued what felt like a royal procession, the crowd packed back in around us and shuffled forward too. When I turned to look behind me, I couldn’t see the entrance anymore.

Once we reached the stage, Moms scooped me up in her arms and lifted me into the air, my shiny shoes dangling for everyone to see. All eyes were on me as Pops took me from her and held my hand as he led me to where he’d just been playing the congas. The crowd continued to cheer as he lifted me onto the chair so that I was standing on it.

As soon as I was up on that stage, the butterflies in my stomach started to dance again. This was not a familiar setup for me. Although I was with Pops, my uncles, and our friends doing what we always did, I’d never done it in front of an audience before.

Under hot, bright lights I stood behind the congas and waited for my cue. I knew that all I had to do was let them start playing, find a gap, and join in. Like my father, I didn’t read music. I just played by the instinct deep in my gut.

I played from my heart.

“Go with what you feel, baby, okay?” was the only instruction Pops gave me that night before signaling to the band. The song began, and after a few beats, so did I. Pops stayed close and I followed his lead. I don’t recall what song it was—all my focus was on Pops.

I must have lost myself then, because I don’t remember anything else after he counted me in. People tell me that I played—I mean really played. With Pops’s encouragement, I even launched into my first-ever solo. It was completely ad lib. And the audience went crazy.

Moms stood right up front in the crowd, jumping up and down, clapping and yelling enthusiastically. She put four fingers in her mouth and whistled loudly. Creole by birth and by nature, the woman who’d been born Juanita Marie Gardere had an indomitable spirit. She was the person who taught me that I could do anything, be anything—survive anything. Having grown up with seven siblings who were stars at basketball, baseball, and running track, she learned early on how to be strong, stubborn, loud, and competitive.

“A girl can do everything and anything a boy can do, and don’t you ever forget that!” she’d insist. We teased her that it was the Gardere part of her talking. Whichever genetic line that competitive, stubborn streak came down, Moms taught me that when it came to trying something new, I shouldn’t be afraid. I hear her ever-present and always encouraging “Amen!” in my head, even now.

So that night in Oakland was my night. It was my chance to shine. That was my moment to feel special. It was a reminder that I was part of something bigger and better than me—or anything that had ever happened to me.

I was blessed to have been born into an amazing family. We might not have been rich and we may occasionally have gone hungry, but we never went unloved. My parents weren’t always able to face up to some of life’s harsher realities, but on that night, they wanted me to know my talent and own it for the first time.

As I closed my eyes and forgot about everything other than creating music, I blew that room away.

I was no longer a five-year-old girl who’d had something bad happen to her.

I was Sheila Escovedo—one day to be known as Sheila E.

I was a musician.

Years later, I asked Pops what he remembered of that gig. He paused, a twinkle in his eye. “You played great,” he said, a smile breaking out and wrinkling the skin around his eyes. “Yep . . . That’s what happened. You played loud and you played fast and the audience loved you.”

Being up on that stage with him at Sweet’s marked the first night of the rest of my life. I didn’t know it then, but it was the one that would eventually shape my entire career.

That was when I realized that I’d not only been given the gift of music, but that it was something that would eventually heal my wounds.

Little did I know how powerful that healing would become . . .

Revue de presse

"Extraordinary…Sheila E. has produced a standout celebrity memoir…In what is ultimately an inspiring story of survival over adversity and fulfilling her potential as an artist, Escovedo’s disarming honesty, humble nature, and level-headed sweetness are the memoir’s steady beat.” (Publishers Weekly (starred))

"Candid and uplifting." (Kirkus)

"Engrossing...the memoir has an arresting rhythm...after reading Sheila E.'s moving and restorative story, you will have an even greater appreciation for her as an artist and as a woman." (Essence.com)

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5.0 étoiles sur 5 A fan again! 5 septembre 2014
Par taranote - Publié sur Amazon.com
Format:Format Kindle|Achat vérifié
Sorry, this will be kind of long:-(
Okay, so let me start by saying that growing up, I was the BIGGEST Sheila E. fan! Anyone in my family could tell you this. We're talking posters, every magazine she was in, every tv program I knew she would be on, I was there; saw Krush Groove a million times and knew all the lines (my family hated me:-)) I had no idea why, that's the thing. I mean, with the exception of Glamorous Life (which I love) I wasn't even a big fan of her music (but I bought it because it was her). But it was something about when I saw the video for GL and saw that the woman singing it was playing the drums, I was in awe. Fast forward twenty something years later, I found out that Sheila and her family were having this big show in Oakland to celebrate her parents' 50th (I think) wedding anniversary. I took the money I'd been saving for something else and bought a ticket to the show, a rt plane ticket from NY and booked a hotel & rented a car. I was going! By myself!!
On the night of the event, I had a brief encounter with my idol when she walked past me. She was pleasant, but I couldn't wait till after the performance to hopefully get a picture with her. The show was great, she and her family were amazing! I decided to take a taxi to the event to avoid parking, so while I was waiting for the taxi to pick me up, I struck a conversation with two local women. They were amazed that I'd flown all the way there for this experience and were sad for me that I didn't really get to tell Sheila how big a fan I was and get a picture with her. Well, my taxi was late and Sheila's manager walked out and after the ladies asked on my behalf if I could meet Sheila, she said Sheila had gone home. I was disappointed, but oh well. A few minutes later, an angel walked out. It was Sheila's mother! The ladies asked to take a picture with her and then one of them pointed to me and told her my story. She was SHOCKED that I'd flown all the way from NY to see her daughter! She grabbed my hand and pulled me back into the ballroom and up to the VIP area to meet Sheila! I met her father first. He was suprised too that I had made that trip and appreciative. He signed my book and kissed me on the cheek. I was then taken to upstairs to Sheila and her mother called her over. Sheila signed my book and posed for a picture that her mother took. It all felt exactly the way it was, which was: "I'm tired, don't feel like taking this picture, but I will. Thanks a lot mom." (The picture was a Kool Aid smiling me with a barely smiling Sheila). I knew she was tired and rightly so. The woman is human. But right then at that moment, my feeelings had changed and I was disappointed. I thanked Sheila, turned to her mother, beaming and on the brink of tears, thanked her. I was so grateful. She gave me a sincere hug. When I walked away, she called me back by my name. When I turned around, she was handing me a bouquet of mini white roses from the event. I fell in love with her mother that night. What an amazing woman and everything Sheila described in her book.
Oh, the book!
When I found out she had a book, I felt that even though I wasn't really a fan anymore, I'd invested so much time and so many years being one, that I felt I had to read it. I'm glad I did!
After reading the book, which is a well-written, sometimes funny good read, I learned that Sheila and I had a LOT in common, so many things, both, fortunate and unfortunate; we even lived on the same street as kids, she in Oakland, me in NY. Most important of all, I got some insight into who Sheila is. The woman is human, that's all. I got the feeling that she doesn't view her celebrity status the way most people view celebrities. She didn't get into the game to become a "star". She just loves music and her family. When I met her that night, I had met a woman who was celebrating her family and who had just worn herself out doing what she loved. I'm happy to say I'm a fan again and I wish Sheila and her family the best:-)
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3.0 étoiles sur 5 About what I expected 8 septembre 2014
Par Sam M - Publié sur Amazon.com
Format:Format Kindle|Achat vérifié
As a long time fan (since The Glamorous Life era), I was excited to purchase this and get some more insight into Sheila E's life and creative process. It's a very easy, fast read, although the writing is a bit amateurish as you'd expect from an autobiography (but this one has a co-author!). If you are exclusively looking for details on her professional and personal relationship with Prince, it's not worth the money (very little new info revealed here), but there are some interesting tidbits: her playing on MJ's "Don't stop til you get enough"; her romantic relationship with Carlos Santana; a bit of info on how her niece, Nicole, came to be adopted by Lionel Richie and his then wife; the physical toll her playing had on her in the late '80's. All in all, a good overview of the life and talent of this amazing percussionist/performer.
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5.0 étoiles sur 5 Sheila E. - A Class Act 7 septembre 2014
Par D. Hudson - Publié sur Amazon.com
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This memoir is about love. Love of music. Love of family. Love of God and loving yourself after being broken by wicked acts. Sheila's story is poignant at times, honest and respectful. If you're looking for a tell-all-book about a love affair with Prince, look elsewhere. Sheila does not "dish" on her relationships with world-famous superstars. She discusses her feelings, keeping the most private details private. I respect her for that. She wasn't out for attention in writing this book. She wanted to tell her story of a vibrant and colorful childhood, filled with music and the love of a close family. She writes about her entrance into the world of professional musicianship at a very young age and to explain what she learned along the way. She also writes of her painful and horrific experience of sexual assault and her journey to healing. If you love Sheila E, this book will make your adore her!
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5.0 étoiles sur 5 Great Book. Cannot recommend it enough. 3 septembre 2014
Par Duane Tudahl - Publié sur Amazon.com
Just downloaded my copy and I'm really enjoying it. Thank you for sharing your story with us Sheila. It is a pretty amazing tale of a pretty amazing person. It covers her time with Prince, but that is only part of her story. Painful at times and optimistic in other sections, it is a rollercoaster ride worthy of your time. Great book and I highly recommend it.
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5.0 étoiles sur 5 Her story was one I could not put down... 22 septembre 2014
Par danyg27 - Publié sur Amazon.com
Format:Format Kindle|Achat vérifié
A very honest and forthright read. I knew Sheila and she knew me from back in the day and I would run into her every now and then and the last time was @ Yoshi's in Oakland. She mentions so many places and names of people that was the circle we ran in. The Godinez family was one I had personal relationships with and was the musical family she mentioned along with the the Floreses & Guzmans. When she mentions how she was molested and raped it had a familiar sad vibe to it for I too was molested by a cousin although I was'nt raped he still robbed me of my innocence. I found out later that I wasn't the only cousin he made do sexual acts either. I turned to the arts as well and now teach dance to children which for me has been my therapy and for the kids as well. Her book is a great inspiration for anyone who wants to know how someone can rise above the harsh challenges that life presents itself to. I applaud her for her honesty and the realization that she could be better even when she was misguided by her fame or fears. She's right about her loving family and in so many ways they were her saving grace and of course her music. I loved her mom Juanita who I used to visit after taken classes at the Oakland Ballet in that health food store she worked at across the street. I remember at the Greek theater way back then, how she told the security guard that I was her son so he'd let me in. I saw Zina, Juanita, Pete & sons play 3 years ago on New Year's Eve with Angela Davis in the house @ Yoshis and they are still that tight loving family, I believe Sheila was on tour. But the book, Sheila's "The Beat Of My Own Drum" is the book to read and I'm not saying it because I know her and the family. This truly is a great read and she had a great collaboration with Wendy Holden to express herself...Thank You Sheila for sharing your story and for all your heart-felt help with your work and love...Daniel Giray
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